Under The Water
I was so overwhelmed and worried all day long. Its like having good time, then everything crumble. " Why I did that? Should I do that instead? " —the uncertainty and burden that I put to myself is real. Then the Dreamies are releasing new songs, and next thing I know I'm holding myself in order not to cry while listening " Life Is Still Going On " because I can't imagine myself anywhere near the future. The Dreamies did a lot of things to be like what they are now but I'm sad I can't do the same. Maybe in the end, we need other people to reach the bright final line of life so we could be happy. I allowed myself to cry not because its valid. But because I thought it was okay to give myself some slack. I know I'm lacking so much and yet I'm still in the same place. I read more books, more thing, things . But I wake up everyday feeling exactly the same like the day before. I was so exhausted and yearning for a little escape. Yet I couldn't b...