Reality Bites

I was so overwhelmed and worried all day long. Its like having good time, then everything crumble. " Why I did that? Should I do that instead? " —the uncertainty and burden that I put to myself is real. Then the Dreamies are releasing new songs, and next thing I know I'm holding myself in order not to cry while listening " Life Is Still Going On " because I can't imagine myself anywhere near the future. The Dreamies did a lot of things to be like what they are now but I'm sad I can't do the same. Maybe in the end, we need other people to reach the bright final line of life so we could be happy. I allowed myself to cry not because its valid. But because I thought it was okay to give myself some slack. I know I'm lacking so much and yet I'm still in the same place. I read more books, more thing, things . But I wake up everyday feeling exactly the same like the day before. I was so exhausted and yearning for a little escape. Yet I couldn't b...

Life is weirder when you don’t have friends. Its like an epiphany of language. Once I flick the button, I came to lights. Where I left barely exposed. Barely naked. Bare. Yet no one seems to grasp the idea of being a living thing. We share the same sentiment, the (purposedly) same sense, yet we set off from the different kind of foreground that kinda destructing us to the way we wanted it to be. Life sure is weirder when you have a consideration. The living consciousness that wait to be relieved.   Saya membaca tentang sub-bab subjektivitas sebelumnya. Tentang ‘sesuatu’ dalam diri kita yang belum dijamah, atau sudah dijelajahi tapi tak bernama. Daripada itu, seperti yang sudah dipelajari sebelumnya, pada dasarnya manusia belajar tentang manusia dan alangkah ceroboh serta kaburnya kita saat mencoba merangkai kesemua pemahaman itu dalam sebuah landasan epistemologis. Manusia (memang) makhluk yang aneh. Seperti hal itu, memiliki kesamaan atau perbedaan yang dapat ditolerir seben...